Nintendo DS system

Two of my kids have a Nintendo DS system. They absolutely loved that darn thing and very rarely puts it down when they’re home. Well I found this really cool R4 DS at gameboy.com. Don’t know what that is? Well it allows you to listen to all your music and MP3s on your Nintendo DS system. I think that’s great. It’s also a cheat device for the games. The kids are going to love that.

But you know what’s even better? It also allows you to watch movies on your Nintendo DS. But there’s still something even better than all of that believe it or not. The R4 DS is only $19 and has free shipping too. I thought it was a mistake but that’s what you can get it for. Well I have ordered 4 of them, just in case I learn of another kid with a Nintendo DS. They’ll think I got them a great gift, guaranteed.

What next?

The other night I was washing clothes and smelled something burning.  My kids asked me what I was burning, I was in the kitchen and no I don’t usually burn dinner so I couldn’t figure out where the smell was coming from.  That is until  opened the laundry room door.

Well when we opened the laundry room door to find it filled with smoke.  Apparently when the washer spun, it didn’t spin because something got stuck with what ever it is that makes it spin.  I let it cool off and turned it back on to the last spin and it worked.  It sounded a bit funny but it still did what it was supposed to do.  The problem is it keeps making that funny noise when it’s washing or spinning now. 

I hate the thought of having to buy a new washing machine.  I’ll go to Lowe’s Home Improvement Center when I do.  I always find the best prices there.

Can you see it?

Have you heard about the comet that will be visible to the naked eye?  It’s amazing to me and my children.  We have been looking for it in the sky but have not seen it yet.  Can you see it from where you are?  Here’s what the news had to say about it:

For the next few days, a newly discovered, green-tinted comet will be visible by the naked eye in most parts of the Northern Hemisphere. Comet Lulin, with the official designation of C/2007 N3, was discovered in 2007 and astronomers say that this is the first time it has visited our solar system and may well be the last.

As it makes its way around the Sun, an astonishing 800 gallons of water will evaporate from the comet every second. In each 15 minute period, it will shed enough water to fill an Olympic sized swimming pool. It will come within 38 million miles of Earth at its closest pass, making it visible to the naked eye and even clearer with binoculars or a telescope.

The best viewing time for people living in the northern hemisphere is after midnight when Lulin will be at its highest point in the sky, or 40 degrees from the morning horizon. Current estimates peg the maximum brightness at 4th or 5th magnitude, which means dark country skies would be required to see it. No one can say for sure, however, because this is Lulin’s first visit.

Astronomers from NASA and the United Kingdom will use the Swift Telescope to study the comet and its composition. Astronomers also say to see it while you can because this could be the first and only time it passes through our solar system. It’s estimated that if it returns, it will not be for another 1,000,000 years.

“We won’t be able to send a space probe to [the comet], but Swift is giving us some of the information we would get from just such a mission,” said Jenny Carter, at the University of Leicester in England, who is leading the study. The comet was discovered using the Lulin Observatory in Taiwan by astronomers Ye Quanzhi and Lin Chi-Sheng.

It amazes me that they know so much about something like that.  It makes me feel like we are not alone maybe.  Who really knows what’s out there?  Maybe one of my kids will grow up to be an astronaut or someone that will help in discovering more about what truly is out there.  That would be totally awesome, you know.  That’s the amazing thing about children, you never really know what or who they will grow up to be.  I have heard a lot of people say that they wouldn’t bring a child into this world the way it is today.  Well how do you know if they might be the one that helps make the world a better place or not?  You don’t so hope is one thing that every child brings into this world I feel.  I don’t think I’m the only one that thinks that way either.

Working hard!

Well I have had two sessions with the online counselor and I am working really hard to do what they have suggested.  I get up in the morning and look in the mirror and tell myself that I am worthy and I deserve only the best and that’s what I will have.  I can’t say I believe it yet but it sounds good anyway.  I can easily look at my children and say they are very special and deserve the best and can have anything they want if they work hard enough but I’m still having trouble believing it for myself.

I know it’s going to take longer than a few days.  I’m not stupid enough to think there’s a quick fix out there.  Its going to take a lot of hard work on my part but my children are worth it.  It’s more for them than me.  That’s why I’m doing all of this.  I owe it to them for bringing them into this hard world we live in I believe.

What if I can’t do this?

I suddenly find myself so full of self doubt that it’s almost paralyzing to me.  What if I can’t do this?  What if I mess up the best chance I have ever had to not only be a good mother to my children but to better my own life so there’s can be better too?  I’m so full of what ifs that I can’t hardly function.  Life has been hard for me and my children and then this blessing falls right into our laps and I don’t know how to take it.

I have found a great web site online for counseling.  I am hoping that they will be able to help me stop thinking so negatively about myself and restore my faith in myself.  The counselor is supposed to be one of the best there is so that gives me hope.  Hope, that’s a very strong word.  In fact, it’s one of the strongest I know.  Hope is what they are offering to me and best of all, it’s online and I don’t have to face a group of people I don’t know and whine about my life.  I can’t do that.  Maybe if you need help too, you should check out online counseling.  It has given me hope just knowing something like this is out there for help.

Well I’m all signed up

I filled out all of the necessary paperwork and found out that there is a waiting list for radiology but they said I could take all of my electives, Englishes, and other classes until I finally can get into the actual radiology curriculum.  A lot of the electives are offered online too.  That’s wonderful.  Even if I can’t get into it very soon, I could still take classes that I might be interested in anyway like Spanish so I could help more people by being able to speak Spanish.

Charlie, there must be a very special place in Heaven for people like you.  I only wish I could thank you personally but I know the best way to do that is to honor what you have done for my kids and I by taking this opportunity and making something wonderful for my children and I.

I think I’m going to go to college

I have to admit I hate my job.  I have to work nights sometimes and weekends almost all of the time.  Holidays, well most of them too.  That’s the worst part of working retail.  My mother is a nurse and she has wanted me to go to college to be a nurse like her for as long as I can remember.  She says that she’ll always be able to find a good paying job somewhere no matter what the economy does.  She’s right too but I’m just not the nurse type. It takes a special person to be a nurse and I’m not that person at all.

I have decided to check into being a radiologist.  I could do x-rays.  They get paid good too.  Charlie fixed it so that I could go to college and he would pay for it so tomorrow I’ll go by the local college and see what I have to do to get into that program.  I’m also going to be checking online to see if I can do it online.  That would be great if I could take it online.  I think some of the courses are online at the local college anyway but we shall see.

Went to the lawyers today

I decided that I needed to go to see the lawyer today.  The last thing I want to do is lose the money Charlie left us or blow it on stupid things.  I need to know what is expected of me to keep the money coming in and not make bad decisions that would lose any of the money.  I have never had much of anything so I have to be careful.  In other words, I need financial advice.  When the lawyer was reading the will, I was more or less in shock and most of what he said went in one ear and out the other.  Well I had him to sit down and explain it to me again and make sure I fully understood.

From what I got out of what the lawyer said today, I get so much a month to take care of the kids and I.  The kids each have a trust fund for college that they will get if they go to college to pay for college.  If they don’t go to college, then they don’t get the money until they are 25 years old and then they get a monthly allowance more or less to help them get a start.  When the kids are all moved out, I get to stay in the house but if I decide to move, then the house is sold and the money divided between the kids and I and it goes into our respective trust funds.

If something should happen that I would need a lump sum of money say for medical reasons, then there is a fund set up for that too and I can get the money through the lawyer with proof.  Charlie thought of everything and made sure that none of us would ever want for anything again.  The monthly allowance I get, I can spend it on myself and the kids or I could save some if I wanted.  All of the household bills are taken care of so there’s no reason why I couldn’t save some of it for a rainy day.

Moving day

Well I have pinched myself a hundred times and nothing has changed so I must not be dreaming.  Today we’re moving into Papa Charlies house.  It’s a beautiful 4 bedroom brick home, not just a house.  Each room is decorated beautifully and we are going to leave it just as Papa Charlie had it.  The children are so excited that they will each have their own bedroom.

We have a chance at a new life now.  We struggled so hard for so long that I’m not sure how to act right now.  I keep thinking I’m going to wake up and it’s all going to just be a dream or someone is going to come in and say ‘There’s been a mistake, get out.’  I guess it will take me awhile to settle in and believe it’s all real.

I have paid off everything I owed with my monthly allowance because everything was paid up in full until the middle of next month and I’ll get my allowance the beginning of each month.  Plus I still have my job and will keep it until I decide what I want to go to college for and start classes.  Just because we have been given this wonderful gift, I’m not going to relax and blow it, that’s for sure.  That would be almost like spitting in Charlies face and I’m not about to do that.

The kids are over the moon

I finally have a minute to write a blog.  The kids are absolutely over the moon.  They haven’t slowed down long enough to hardly sleep since they opened all of their presents and Santa came.  I think this has been the best Christmas they have ever had.

There was absolutely nothing they asked for that they didn’t get.  In fact, they got more……….much more than they asked for.  Nothing does a mothers heart better than to see their children happy on Christmas.  I am truly blessed to have my children and the people around me that have filled my life with so much love and joy.  I only hope you have the same.  God bless you each and all.  Now on to a new year!!!!