Mothers Day is Sunday and I have mixed feelings

I read a poem someone wrote about being a Mom and it was really good but the only problem is, it didn’t sound like my mother at all.  My mother was not what you would call a ‘good mother’ but she is my mother.  Without her, I would not be here and for that, I do thank her but do you know how hard it is to find a Mothers Day card for a mother like that?

They really need to have Mothers Day cards that say something along the lines of “I know you think you did your best but maybe you should have tried harder.”  I bet they would sell a bunch of cards like that.  I don’t now.  I can’t find a card that says what I feel so maybe I should just write her a nice little note telling her thank you for having me or something like that.  I do love my mother but I’m not so sure about how I love her.  Does that make any sense to anyone else?