I keep telling myself I’m helping my son.\u00a0 I’m doing what I have to in order to help him get his life back on the road it needs to be on.\u00a0 But when is helping not really helping?\u00a0 What am I really helping him to do?\u00a0 Am I helping him to get it together or am I helping him to keep running from what truly needs to be fixed?\u00a0 By that I mean he has a lot to face and fix still.\u00a0 Am I helping him to get to the road that helps him face and fix the mess he has created all on his own or am I helping him to run from it all and not really face it?\u00a0 I wish I had the answer.\u00a0 I wish someone had the answer but when they do, I don’t really want to hear it.<\/p>\n
I have been told that I am only enabling him and not helping him.\u00a0 That’s a hard pill for a parent to swallow, enabling instead helping.\u00a0 I have prayed and prayed and still I can’t find the answer or don’t really want to hear the answer I get I’m afraid.\u00a0 I don’t know which it is.\u00a0 This is my firstborn son.\u00a0 My blood, my child in my eyes even though in all reality, he’s a grown man that has to learn to live his own life and be responsible for his own choices.\u00a0 What gets me is this was the most independent child we had.\u00a0 I think his first words were ‘I do it’.\u00a0 And do it he has, his way always.\u00a0 That can be good but in his case, it’s hasn’t always been.<\/p>\n
Still I have this darn decision to make about the truck.\u00a0 Part of me wishes that someone else would make it for me and then I could say to my son that I had no choice but that’s the cowards way out.\u00a0 Women think they are the only ones that suffer for their children but they’re wrong.\u00a0 Father suffer and worry too, we just don’t allow it to show like women do.\u00a0 There’s a part of me that wishes I could show it too but I’m a man and that’s not the way a man does things.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I keep telling myself I’m helping my son.\u00a0 I’m doing what I have to in order to help him get his life back on the road it needs to be on.\u00a0 But when is helping not really helping?\u00a0 What am I really helping him to do?\u00a0 Am I helping him to get it together or … <\/p>\n